You, The Creator.

There was a lot on my mind as I talked to Sean. We were on the balcony of the Albion, it was late and it was cold. I had left the group I came with at the pool table and I knew they were getting impatient. But the more I talked to Sean the more I knew I had to stay on the balcony. Sean spoke about living in British Columbia, his victory tour as a cyclist, his love of pool and most interestingly, his Satori. Satori is a Buddhist term to describe a sudden spiritual awakening and his awareness of God, but not as what we think God is. Sean views God as as the universe on a whole, not a singular being. He believes that we are the creator and the universe creates the miracles through our will. In his own words: "You have come to know yourself as the creator. That's why you're here. You created this world, the universe and everything in it before you created the idea about you. You chose to come here looking exactly as you do, being exactly as you are with the intentions of the world that you have. And you came here to make those intentions realized." Sean spoke with sincerity and excitement, and while I was shivering he remained calm and controlled. It was like the thrill of sharing his thoughts to someone kept him warm. We started talking about about the seduction of high paying work and how it makes us quiet slaves to our job. I joked saying we all just wanted to be rock stars, and Sean agreed. "It is the artists and creators of the world that speak the most truth, but they do it in their music and it goes unchecked. You write a novel saying the same ideas and you'll get all sorts of people saying you can't write about that." I agreed, I noticed that as well. Sean quoted the opening lyrics of The Scientist and how it connected to his beliefs. "'Come up to meet you/tell you I'm sorry/you don't know know how lovely you are.' Now, that right there is the perfect example of what you are." I admitted that I wasn't quite grasping the connection. It seemed more akin to something you would say to a lover. So, Sean said this. "You're God. You came here to forget that you're God and when you die you can remember you're God and go 'Fuck! Really? I was God that whole time and everything I thought about and dreamed of could have been realized on? Oh man.' And you'll want to come back and do it again because you failed to do what you came here to do this time." Sean's response resonated with me a great deal because I've heard this belief numerous times in the past. With my mother being a medium I've met a great deal of spiritual and enlightened people and they've all said the same thing. When you are born, you have chosen to willfully come back to this world with very specific intentions. Whether it is to finally learn a failed lesson from a past life or to create something in this life that you never managed to. Whatever the lesson is, we have chosen to come back to fulfill it. So when we die and truly cross over, if we still haven't accomplished what we came back to do then we're given the choice to return to try again. So before and after death you could understand that you are the creator of your world, but what about during? I asked Sean about what it meant to be aware that you're the Creator and sarcastically I asked if I could move a mountain. Sean laughed and smartened me up. "This was a few weeks after my awakening, so my mom came out to  BC for the first time and had never been to Whistler. Now, my mom is terrified of being in cars and she did not want to drive the Sea-To-Sky highway to Whistler, that's the one they had to redo because it was so dangerous. My aunt was asking me what to do, So I said don't worry, I'll take care of it, I'll think of something. So that night, I'm laying in bed and I'm basically in this place of knowing I'm God, and that I can ask  the universe for anything. So I said, 'okay, fuck, man. I don't know what you're  capable of doing, but you know what you're capable of. So just do it. On the day we're suppose to go to Whistler an avalanche shuts down the Sea-To-Sky Highway to Whistler from the day she arrived to literally the moment she took off on the plane. There was no option to go to Whistler anymore. God, if you will, intervened." Or you, I interjected. "[laugh] Maybe. But the only reason that happened is because the intention came from what?" Will? I asked. Sean answered. "Love, brother. Love. Love is the only thing that runs the universe and it's the only thing that's true. You could ask the universe for anything with the sincerity of love in your heart and it not deny you a thing. " It was at that moment that I started to understand more of what Sean was talking about and where he was coming from. Sean's belief stems from love for yourself and for the world. It also ties closely to the act of positive affirmation, which is a very old mental and spiritual practice that uses positive energy and meditation to manifest change in to the real world. Simply through the practitioners  belief and will, by willing something through love and positive intentions, some people believe that it's possible that your intentions can take on form. "Ask a wish for any body you care about, if God is real, if God is true, then wish for everything to work out for that person, and watch as it does. And that is God speaking to you on a universal level, that was you, it was your creative power that manifested the change."  At this point, we had been outside for half an hour. My feet were beyond numb, my cigarette long burnt out and I knew that my friends were getting impatient. I asked Sean if he wanted one final closing statement before we wrapped it up and went back in to finish the game of pool we started. He said he did, and told me this. "Jesus said in the bible, everything I can do, you can do and more. What do you think he was trying to tell you? He's a god, and so are you. And we are finally ready to understand that now. The development of the human brain is so that we can intellectually understand that which is God, because it is so huge and so vast that it would be incomprehensible to us before. We developed this intellectual mind so that when we wake up to the knowledge of God, we have the understanding to use that knowledge."  Perfect, I said. Sean extinguished his smoke as we shook hands and went back inside for drinks. The rest of the night may have been a blur, but the details of our conversation were cemented in me through out our time together at the Albion. Sean's philosophies may seem radical to some, but it's the heart of his beliefs that ring the most truth. Love is a very powerful tool and with it, anyone could reshape their world as they truly wish to see it. All you have to do is believe it.